Sunday, December 12, 2010

Hello World! This is my Voice

I setup this Blog a few weeks ago and I had no idea how to start it. I finally figured it out!

Let me tell you a little about myself I am a thirty something year old single woman who is overweight by everyone’s standard and in my circle of friends the only one who is single and childless. Soo needless to say I spend a lot of time by myself with my dog. So what else is there to do but eat my feelings until I feel like crap for eating like I was stranded in a well for 2 weeks and not for being lonely!

I realized maybe it’s time for me to speak to someone about my sort of depression eating my feelings until I reached over 200 pounds, but my health insurance sucks so badly I cannot afford therapy so maybe writing my feelings for the whole world to see will help me heal and move forward new year new me isn’t that the cliché of all clichés just like I will definitely quick smoking and start my diet on January 1st ! J

How could I possibly be the only woman/person going through this. I constantly have the smile on my face and I truck along waiting for someone to seriously ask how I am doing or notice that I don’t seem quite right but it never happens. Is it that everyone is so wrapped up in themselves their children & families, is it because no one really cares about me could it be both? maybe. So just like always I will put the smile on myself and truck along. 

Since its a couple weeks until Christmas and I am a single woman with no children and a very small family I know how fricken depressing this time of year is. No matter if you are a man or woman you cannot help but feel lonely or at least I can’t help but feel lonely and hopeless. That I will be a lone forever and never feel what real love is!

 If I watch one more Lifetime, WE channel, or Hallmark movie about the woman asking for a boyfriend for Christmas or a Mother or father for Christmas I will just scream. No wonder why this time of year has the highest suicide rates. It’s a commercial Holiday who makes everyone else on the planet feel like unloved Grinches. I think Christmas and New year’s eve is worse than Valentine’s day but that a whole other story.